"A dream is what makes your heart beat fast, find out before it stops"

Monday, July 30, 2007

Call Waiting




I'm at this moment sitting in a really Boring Psych lab, so thought i would take the time (of which i don't have much lol) to write a post.


Have been thinking a lot about God's plan lately, and how I'm supposed to be following his will in my life and where he wants me to be etc. This seems to come in periods for me, I've had a few of them before - a sort of identity crisis. I'm unsure if what I'm doing at uni is right for me at the moment, if this is where i can make a significant impact for the big fella.


K i've gotta get to doing stuff in my lab, but I guess i wanna know how u guys go about interpreting God's calling on ur life

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

K not sure what's up with thsoe fotos but all good, who cares, they were funny, take my word for it

Sorry







Hey guys, sorry for not posting in ages. I will start again when my exams are done. In the meantime, here are some funny pics






Friday, March 23, 2007

Argument


"The only unanswerable argument for Christianity is a Christian life."


I think that this is a great quote. The Christian life, if truly lived out the way God meant it to be, will be something that nobody will be able to deny. It will speak the absolute truth of Jesus without even uttering a word.

Would u agree?

Hehe, nice foto!

Monday, March 05, 2007

Goldilocks!

Who is that gorgeous blonde senorita on the left?? My oh my, she is stunning!

Oh! gutted i see she has a boyfiend


Wait, is that a 5 oclock shadow i can see? I do believe that girl has facial hair!oh well, she still does it for me


Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Oh how nice!


This is a foto of me and this random girl that i picked up at this mint place out in the waitak ranges. Man it was such a sweet spot. The girl ate all my food as well, which i was a bit upset about, but after all, what are women good for apart from leeching everything u have?? hehe
Anyway, this was the kinda place that for me, i felt a lot closer to God, all close to nature and all that. When there is no noise apart from that which nature makes, then you find it pretty hard to neglect the might and splendour of God

Monday, February 12, 2007

I am a TIGER!!


Check out the resemblance

spot the difference

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Parachute again

I reckon it's one of the most awesome things - worshipping out in the openespecially with the sky being so mint. I love the sky, it is one of the coolest ways for me to see the awesomeness of God, and to do this while worshipping to some sweet bands is even better.
I am very very sexy, I want to disco dance with that guy in the purple shirt. He is so HOT!




K well that one sucks, I forgot to rotate it the right way, and can't be bothered changing it. I think that was at the morning meeting one day when it was way too hot so we had to put up the umbrella.


So parachute was great - tenting with very awesome ppl, great bands and all that. Now the biggest challenge is to maintain the spiritual level at the same or if not better level than it was when we left.



Friday, February 02, 2007

I MISS YOU PARACHUTE!! I want to marry Third Day


Friday, January 05, 2007

Super Rep


This foto is of me and super rep at Bondi Beach in Sydney




I miss Nick Park. U know what, i think that this guy was one of the reasons that 7th form at Rangi 2004 was such an interesting and awesome experience. Even though some people thought that he was slightly strange (sorry nick if u are reading this), he really was and is a great guy. I miss those "Nick Park, super rep", and "Hey guys, *click click* somehooowwww", and "Kali George, do u wanna go to the ball with me??", and all that crazy stuff that started to become some of the school sayings. Well, I can certainly say that he made my year that much more interesting, and I will definitely have a lot of stories to tell my grandkids about him.



Go nick park, super rep, u are a legend!!!

Monday, December 18, 2006

LONELINESS!!!



Hmmmm...Do u guys ever get times when u just feel like such a loner?? Haha I know I'm not the biggest of loners but whenever i'm sitting at home doing nothing, especially during the holidays, it just gets to u. I mean, how do u get rid of that feeling??

Just look at that guy in the foto!!! what a loser!!! hahaha. I think he has no friends. I feel sorry for that guy. Sound familiar?? Like, voices that go on in ur head sometimes? Maybe I'm just weird, but I'm pretty sure that happens to everybody, some massive spiritual attack and stuff ( sorry for those of u that don't believe in that stuff, I do).

OK, that's enough seriousness for one post, so here's a joke (sorry those of u I've already told it to lol) - "What do u call 300 white guys chasing after a black dude??"

Answer - "The PGA golf tour!!!"

hahahahahaha good times

Friday, December 01, 2006

Find Someone

This is the best site in the world. Sam Burrows got me into it. We are both struggling single men who want a girlfriend, and he helped me to realise the need to keep up with technology and to use it to my advantage. So here I am, a member of findsomeone.co.nz, and I have already got five smiles from some good looking ladies. So I definitely recommend it for all you fellas who find it difficult to talk to girls in the real world, and who are studmuffins at online chatting up.






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Thursday, November 23, 2006

Borat


Just saw the movie. Pretty dam funny! I can imagine lots of people will get pretty upset by it though lol. Was basically cringing the entire way through the film.

What did u guys think of it???

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

State

A state government can shut down stores and theatres on Sunday, but it cannot compel worship. It can arrest and punish KKK murderers but cannot cure their hatred, much less teach them love. It can pass laws making divorce more difficult but cannot force husbands to love their wives and wives their husbands. It can give subsidies to the poor but cannot force the rich to show them compassion and justice. It can ban adultery but not lust, theft but not covetousness, cheating but not pride. It can encourage virtue but not holiness.

A vision of the church as it should be: If the world despises a notorious sinner, the church will love her. If the world cuts off aid to the poor and the suffering, the church will offer food and healing. If the world oppresses, the church will raise up the oppressed. If the world shames a social outcast, the church will proclaim God's reconciling love. If the world seeks profit and self-fulfillment, the church seeks sacrifice and service. If the world demands retribution, the church dispenses grace. If the world splinters into factions, the church joins together in unity. If the world destroys its enemies, the church loves them.
That, at least, is the vision of the New Testament church: a colony of heaven in a hostile world.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Escalating Madness


We live in a pretty insane world.
Massacre after massacre, war after war. One group of extremists seeks retribution for something another group did to them 30 years ago, which by an unbreaking chain was as a result of someone being wronged many years before that. It becomes so screwed up that the people who commit many of these atrocities don't even really know why they are doing it, apart from a hatred that has been instilled in them from an early age, and most of which is traced back to some act generations before them. We live in a world of ungrace, whereby as someone is wronged, they feel that they must seek justice and revenge. It is something as simple as this which starts this chain of misery that passes down many generations.
I believe the only way to counter this ungrace, is by its opposite - grace. It seems to me that forgiveness is the only solution to this kind of ongoing conflict. All it takes is for someone to give up their inbuilt pride and hatred, and say sorry. It doesn't even matter if they weren't the ones that started it. But forgiveness goes against all human instinct - it requires a huge personal effort.
Think of the wars in Yugoslavia, Ireland, Korea, and even the United States.

Conflicts started many years earlier have continued a chain of ungrace well beyond the issue and origin of the conflict. We live in a world which constantly seeks for retribution and justice. But forgiveness has its own extraordinary power which reaches beyond law and beyond justice. People don't understand forgiveness. Our very nature tells us to strike back at those who hurt us. But the only way to get past this, is to rise to something greater than that - the amazing healing force of forgiveness which breaks the cycle of ungrace.

There is one major flaw in revenge: it never settles the score.

"Forgiveness may be unfair, but at least it provides a way to halt the juggernaut of retribution."

Friday, July 28, 2006

Some Evidence for Jesus Resurrection

Yo,
This is just some of the evidence I've researched on the evidence for Jesus' resurrection. Most of the stuff in here is from an article by Josh McDowell online, and also the book "Introducing the New Testament", by John Drane. Just to put it out there. It's not all just a faith thing, there is actually some basis behind this. Also just wanted to make sure for myself that my belief isn't based on blind faith. Please write comments if you disagree with some points or whatever, would be great to hear it all from you guys.

For centuries, many of the world's distinguished philosophers have assaulted Christianity as being irrational, superstitious and absurd. Many have chosen simply to ignore the central issue of the resurrection. Others have tried to explain it away through various theories. But the historical evidence just can't be discounted.
Basically, the resurrection of Jesus Christ is either one of the most wicked, viscious, heartless hoaxes ever foisted on the minds of human beings - or it is the most remarkable fact of history.
Here are some of the facts relevant to the resurrection: Jesus of Nazareth, a Jewish prophet who claimed to be the Christ prophesied in the Jewish scriptures, was arrested, was judged a political criminal, and was crucified. Three days after His death and burial, some women who went to his tomb found the body gone. In subsequent weeks, his disciples claimed that God had raised him from the dead and that he appeared to them various times before ascending into heaven.
From that foundation, Christianity spread throughout the Roman Empire and has continued to exert great influence down through the centuries.

LIVING WITNESSES - The New Testament accounts of the resurrection were being circulated within the lifetimes of men and women alive at the time of the resurrection. Those people could certainly have confirmed or denied the accuracy of such accounts.
The writers of the four gospels either had themselves been witnesses or were relating the accounts of witnesses of the actual events. In advocating their case for the gospel, a word that means "good news", the apostles appealed (even when confronting their most severe opponents) to common knowledge concerning the facts of the resurrection. In 1 Corinthians 15, the information Paul included about how Jeses rose from the dead is more or less accidental, which in itself is impressive, because he reminded the Corinthians that what he was saying was something they had always known and believed. In fact, the gospels never mention a lot of the widely known at the time appearances of the risen Jesus at all, which suggests that the fact of Jesus' resurrection was so widely believed among the first generations of Christians that the people who wrote the gospel stories did not even think it important to give all the evidence for it.
F.F. Bruce, Rylands professor of Biblical criticism and exegesis at the University of Manchester says about the value of the New Testament records as primary sources, "Had the been any tendency to depart from the facts in any material respect, the possible presence of hostile witnesses in the audience would have served as a further corrective." This basically means that if anything they said was wrong, people who didn't believe what these people were saying or were against them would have given the proof that they were wrong.

IS THE NEW TESTAMENT RELIABLE? - Because the New Testament provides the primary historical source for information on the resurrection, many critics during the 19th century attacked the reliability of these biblical documents.
By the end of the 1 9th century, however, archaeological discoveries had confirmed the accuracy of the New Testament manuscripts. Discoveries of early papyri bridged the gap between the time of Christ and existing manuscripts from a later date.
Those findings increased scholarly confidence in the reliability of the Bible. William F. Albright, who in his day was the world's foremost biblical archaeologist, said: "We can already say emphatically that there is no longer any solid basis for dating any book of the New Testament after about A.D. 80, two full generations before the date between 130 and 150 given by the more radical New Testament critics of today."
Coinciding with the papyri discoveries, heaps of other manuscripts came to light (over 5,000 Greek copies of early New Testament manuscripts are known to be in existence today). The historian Luke wrote of "authentic evidence" concerning the resurrection. Sir William Ramsay, who spent 15 years attempting to undermine Luke credentials as a historian, and to refute the reliability of the New Testament, finally concluded: "Luke is a historian of the first rank . . . This author should be placed along with the very greatest of historians."
E. M. Blaiklock, a professor of Classics at University of Auckland says "I claim to be an historian. My approach to Classics is historical. And I tell you that the evidence for the life, the death, and the resurrection of Christ is better authenticated than most of the facts of ancient history . . . "

F. F. Bruce of Manchester University says "If the New Testament were a collection of secular writings, their authenticity would generally be regarded as beyond all doubt." Which is pretty true when you think about it. It seems that so often people just don't even look into this stuff coz they don't want to believe.

BACKGROUND - Here is some brief background info. The New Testament witnesses were fully aware of the background against which the resurrection took place. The body of Jesus, in accordance with Jewish burial custom, was wrapped in a linen cloth. About 100 pounds of aromatic spices, mixed together to form a gummy substance, were applied to the wrappings of cloth about the body. After the body was placed in a solid rock tomb, an extremely large stone was rolled against the entrance of the tomb. Large stones weighing approximately two tons were normally rolled (by means of levers) against a tomb entrance.
A Roman guard of strictly disciplined fighting men was stationed to guard the tomb. This guard affixed on the tomb the Roman seal, which was meant to "prevent any attempt at vandalizing the sepulcher(tomb). Anyone trying to move the stone from the tomb's entrance would have broken the seal and thus incurred the wrath of Roman law.
But three days later the tomb was empty. The followers of Jesus said He had risen from the dead. They reported that He appeared to them during a period of 40 days, showing Himself to them by many "infallible proofs." Paul the apostle recounted that Jesus appeared to more than 500 of His followers at one time, the majority of whom were still alive and who could confirm what Paul wrote. So many security precautions were taken with the trial, crucifixion, burial, entombment, sealing, and guarding of Christ's tomb that it becomes very difficult for critics to defend their position that Christ did not rise from the dead. Consider these facts:

FACT #1: BROKEN ROMAN SEAL As we have said, the first obvious fact was the breaking of the seal that stood for the power and authority of the Roman Empire. The consequences of breaking the seal were extremely severe. The FBI and CIA of the Roman Empire were called into action to find the man or men who were responsible. If they were apprehended, it meant automatic execution by crucifixion upside down. People feared the breaking of the seal. Jesus' disciples displayed signs of cowardice when they hid themselves. Peter, one of these disciples, went out and denied Christ three times.

FACT #2: EMPTY TOMB As we have already discussed, another obvious fact after the resurrection was the empty tomb. The disciples of Christ did not go off to Athens or Rome to preach that Christ was raised from the dead. Rather, they went right back to the city of Jerusalem, where, if what they were teaching was false, the falsity would be evident. The empty tomb was "too notorious to be denied." Paul Althaus states that the resurrection "could have not been maintained in Jerusalem for a single day, for a single hour, if the emptiness of the tomb had not been established as a fact for all concerned."
Both Jewish and Roman sources and traditions admit an empty tomb. Those resources range from Josephus to a compilation of fifth-century Jewish writings called the "Toledoth Jeshu." Dr. Paul Maier calls this "positive evidence from a hostile source, which is the strongest kind of historical evidence. In essence, this means that if a source admits a fact decidedly not in its favor, then that fact is genuine." This basically means that those who were against the Jesus movement admitted that the evidence for Jesus' resurrection was genuine.
Gamaliel, who was a member of the Jewish high court, the Sanhedrin, put forth the suggestion that the rise of the Christian movement was God's doing; he could not have done that if the tomb were still occupied, or if the Sanhedrin knew the whereabouts of Christ's body.
Paul Maier observes that " . . . if all the evidence is weighed carefully and fairly, it is indeed justifiable, according to the canons of historical research, to conclude that the sepulcher of Joseph of Arimathea, in which Jesus was buried, was actually empty on the morning of the first Easter. And no shred of evidence has yet been discovered in literary sources, epigraphy, or archaeology that would disprove this statement."

FACT #3: LARGE STONE MOVED On that Sunday morning the first thing that impressed the people who approached the tomb was the unusual position of the one and a half to two ton stone that had been lodged in front of the doorway. All the Gospel writers mention it.
Those who observed the stone after the resurrection describe its position as having been rolled up a slope away not just from the entrance of the tomb, but from the entire massive sepulcher. It was in such a position that it looked as if it had been picked up and carried away. Now, I ask you, if the disciples had wanted to come in, tiptoe around the sleeping guards, and then roll the stone over and steal Jesus' body, how could they have done that without the guards' awareness?

FACT #4: ROMAN GUARD GOES AWOL The Roman guards fled. They left their place of responsibility. How can their attrition be explained, when Roman military discipline was so exceptional, and with all the offenses that required the death penalty? The fear of their superiors' wrath and the possibility of death meant that they paid close attention to the minutest details of their jobs. One way a guard was put to death was by being stripped of his clothes and then burned alive in a fire started with his garments. If it was not apparent which soldier had failed in his duty, then lots were drawn to see which one would be punished with death for the guard unit's failure. Certainly the entire unit would not have fallen asleep with that kind of threat over their heads. Dr. George Currie, a student of Roman military discipline, wrote that fear of punishment "produced flawless attention to duty, especially in the night watches."

FACT #5: JESUS' APPEARANCES CONFIRMED Christ appeared alive on several occasions after the cataclysmic events of that first Easter . When studying an event in history, it is important to know whether enough people who were participants or eyewitnesses to the event were alive when the facts about the event were published. To know this is obviously helpful in finding the accuracy of the published report. If the number of eyewitnesses is substantial, the event can he regarded as fairly well established. For instance, if we all witness a murder, and a later police report turns out to he a fabrication of lies, we as eyewitnesses can refute it.

OVER 500 WITNESSES - Several very important factors arc often overlooked when considering Christ's post-resurrection appearances to individuals. The first is the large number of witnesses of Christ after that resurrection morning. One of the earliest records of Christ's appearing after the resurrection is by Paul. The apostle appealed to his audience's knowledge of the fact that Christ had been seen by more than 500 people at one time. Paul reminded them that the majority of those people were still alive and could be questioned. Dr. Edwin M. Yamauchi, associate professor of history at Miami University in Oxford, Ohio, emphasizes: "What gives a special authority to the list (of witnesses) as historical evidence is the reference to most of the five hundred brethren being still alive. St. Paul says in effect, 'If you do not believe me, you can ask them.' Such a statement in an admittedly genuine letter written within thirty years of the event is almost as strong evidence as you could hope to get for something that happened nearly two thousand years ago." Let's take the more than 500 witnesses who saw Jesus alive after His death and burial, and place them in a courtroom. Do you realize that if each of those 500 people were to testify for only six minutes, including cross-examination, you would have an amazing 50 hours of firsthand testimony? Add to this the testimony of many other eyewitnesses and you would well have the largest and most lopsided trial in history.

HOSTILE WITNESSES Another factor crucial to interpreting Christ's appearances is that He also appeared to those who were hostile or unconvinced.
Over and over again, it's read or heard people comment that Jesus was seen alive after His death and burial only by His friends and followers. Using that argument, they attempt to water down the overwhelming impact of the multiple eyewitness accounts. No author or informed individual would regard Saul of Tarsus as being a follower of Christ. The facts show the exact opposite. Saul despised Christ and persecuted Christ's followers. It was a life-shattering experience when Christ appeared to him. Although he was at the time not a disciple, he later became the apostle Paul, one of the greatest witnesses for the truth of the resurrection.
No one acquainted with the facts can accurately say that Jesus appeared to just "an insignificant few."
Christians believe that Jesus was bodily resurrected in time and space by the supernatural power of God. The difficulties of belief may be great, but the problems involved in unbelief present even greater difficulties.
The theories given to explain the resurrection by "natural causes" are weak; they actually help to build confidence in the truth of the resurrection.

THE WRONG TOMB? A theory propounded by Kirsopp Lake assumes that the women who reported that the body was missing had mistakenly gone to the wrong tomb. If so, then the disciples who went to check up on the women's statement must have also gone to the wrong tomb. We may be certain, however, that Jewish authorities, who asked for a Roman guard to be stationed at the tomb to prevent Jesus' body from being stolen, would not have been mistaken about the location. Nor would the Roman guards, for they were there!
If the resurrection-claim was merely because of a geographical mistake, the Jewish authorities would have lost no time in producing the body from the proper tomb, thus effectively quenching for all time any rumor resurrection.

HALLUCINATIONS? Another attempted explanation claims that the appearances of Jesus after the resurrection were either illusions or hallucinations. Unsupported by the psychological principles governing the appearances of hallucinations, this theory also does not coincide with the historical situation. Again, where was the actual body, and why wasn't it produced?

DID JESUS SWOON? Another theory, given by Venturini several centuries ago, is often quoted today. This is the swoon theory, which says that Jesus didn't die; he merely fainted from exhaustion and loss of blood. Everyone thought Him dead, but later He resuscitated and the disciples thought it to be a resurrection. Skeptic David Friedrich Strauss--certainly no believer in the resurrection--gave the deathblow to any thought that Jesus revived from a swoon: "It is impossible that a being who had stolen half-dead out of the sepulchre, who crept about weak and ill, wanting medical treatment, who required bandaging, strengthening and indulgence, and who still at last yielded to His sufferings, could have given to the disciples the impression that He was a Conqueror over death and the grave, the Prince of Life, an impression which lay at the bottom of their future ministry. Such a resuscitation could only have weakened the impression which He had made upon them in life and in death, at the most could only have given it an elegiac voice, but could by no possibility have changed their sorrow into enthusiasm, have elevated their reverence into worship." He would have bled to death from his massive wounds anyway. Nobody can survive crucifixion - the Romans were experts at killing in this way. They even shoved a spear in his side as well, just to make sure that he was dead.

THE BODY STOLEN? Then consider the theory that the body was stolen by the disciples while the guards slept. The depression and cowardice of the disciples provide a hard-hitting argument against their suddenly becoming so brave and daring as to face a detachment of soldiers at the tomb and steal the body. They were in no mood to attempt anything like that. Even if the disciples had stolen the body, it is almost impossible to imagine that they would have willingly suffered in the way that they did, if all the time they knew where they themselves had hidden Jesus' body.
The theory that the Jewish or Roman authorities moved Christ's body is no more reasonable an explanation for the empty tomb than theft by the disciples. If the authorities had the body in their possession or knew where it was, why, when the disciples were preaching the resurrection in Jerusalem, didn't they explain: "Wait! We moved the body, see, He didn't rise from the grave"?
Why didn't they recover the corpse, put it on a cart, and wheel it through the center of Jerusalem? Such an action would have destroyed Christianity--not in the cradle, but in the womb!

THE RESURRECTION IS A FACT - Professor Thomas Arnold, author of the famous, History of Rome, and appointed to the chair of modern history at Oxford, was well acquainted with the value of evidence in determining historical facts. This great scholar said: "I have been used for many years to study the histories of other times, and to examine and weigh the evidence of those who have written about them, and I know of no one fact in the history of mankind which is proved by better and fuller evidence of every sort, to the understanding of a fair inquirer, than the great sign which God hath given us that Christ died and rose again from the dead." Brooke Foss Westcott, an English scholar, said: "raking all the evidence together, it is not too much to say that there is no historic incident better or more variously supported than the resurrection of Christ. Nothing but the antecedent assumption that it must be false could have suggested the idea of deficiency in the proof of it."

REAL PROOF: THE DISCIPLES' LIVES - The most telling testimony of all is the indisputable fact that a thoroughly disheartened band of disciples, who should definitely have been depressed and disillusioned by their leader's crucifixion, was, in the space of 7 weeks, transformed into a strong band of courageous witnesses, whose central fact of their witness was that Jesus was alive and active. These people had no hesitation in attributing the change in themselves as a result of Jesus rising from the dead.
Had there been any visible benefits given to them from their efforts--prestige, wealth, increased social status or material benefits--we might logically attempt to account for their actions, for their whole-hearted and total allegiance to this "risen Christ ."
But as a reward for their efforts, however, those early Christians were beaten, stoned to death, thrown to the lions, tortured and crucified. Every conceivable method was used to stop them from talking.
Yet, they laid down their lives as the ultimate proof of their complete confidence in the truth of their message. It is beyond all doubt that no one dies for something unless they are totally convinced of its truth.


SUM-UP - When confronted with the overwhelming evidence for Christ's resurrection, you have to ask the logical question: "What difference does all this evidence make to me? What difference does it make whether or not I believe Christ rose again and died on the cross for my sins!" The answer is put best by something Jesus said to a man who doubted - Thomas. Jesus told him: "I am the way, and the truth, and the life; no one comes to the Father but through Me" (John 14:6)

On the basis of all the evidence for Christ's resurrection, and considering the fact that Jesus offers forgiveness of sin and an eternal relationship with God, it's pretty dam hard for me to reject him. It's not just this evidence on which to base faith, Christ is alive! He is living today and changing people's lives for the better. I couldn't think of any better way to be.
Don't at all mean to offend anyone by what I've said, but rather just to put across some of the reasons why I believe in this.

J

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Motivation


Motivation - I think this is the ultimate barrier that most of us find when we are wanting to do something effective. So many times in the past, I have had these awesome ideas about how to pull something cool off, or to help someone out or whatever, and when it gets down to the punch, it's the motivation, or lack thereof, that pulls you away from whatever you are wanting to do.

Just imagine if we were to all catch hold of our dreams, our hopes, and to work together to bring these into reality - if we could provide the motivation for each other. I know this sounds idealistic, because we do live in such an individualistic culture - everyone living for themselves, and to get the best for ourselves. But I believe that deep down, everyone wants some sense of community, where we can all work together towards something better, coz nothing really worthwhile comes from being selfish. This is by no means being judgemental, because we all do it, especially including myself.

On another note, a special thanks to all those who came to share in mine and Dylan's special day last weekend at our baptism. It was a beaut day, and it made it all the more special having you all there to share it with us. And to those of you that couldn't make it, thank you also for all that you've done for us.

In the midst of a world where we often live in fear of what terrible things may happen in the days ahead, I only hope that we can all find some sort of common ground, and a sense of stability with which we can move forward together.

J

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Sucks

OK, so I just found out that I haven't been successful with trying to get a scholarship. And, I'm like, wow, I have just spent the last 2 years working my ass off to get this, and to find out I can't go, sucks!!! It's like, what am I supposed to do now?! I thought I would be OK before, but actually finding out today, it all just kinda weighed down on me.
Anyway, on a better note, I'm getting baptised on Saturday! Woohoo! That should be sweet, I'm really looking forward to it. And I'm stoked I'm getting it done with Dylan. Just that next step, it'll be all good man.
I have only just started this blog, and I don't think anyone knows it exists, so I wouldn't be surprised if noone ever reads this.
But if you do, I would really appreciate u writing me back a comment or something, just to make me feel better haha